Oh boy. This week was nuts. It's amazing how fast time can go by. It is seriously a blur. I think I say that every week...and the scary thing is is that it goes faster and faster! It's only in November that I'll be out here 6 months. :S I don't like to think about it.
Well this week we had been working hard to get W. all ready for baptism. I can't even describe W.....he is a funny one. It was all going well...but then we weren't feeling very good about his interview so we pushed it back a couple of days. We felt uneasy the whole week, and we weren't sure why. I'll admit I was ignoring promptings and just pluggin along...because by the book W. is totally ready for baptism....and I was really excited to finally have a baptism....but we still just didn't feel great about it. So Sunday morning rolled around and we went to church and did the normal thing. And W. didn't come to church...we took that as a sign that Heavenly Father was helping us realize all the promptings He had already sent us. So the baptism didn't happen and I was feeling pretty down. Not because it didn't happen, but because I had let the "numbers" get in the way of really sorrying about the people. When I came out I was determined to not be that kind of missionary...because there are a whole lot! and I have let that all catch up to me. It's no secret....everyone determines how good of a missionary you are by the amount of baptisms you have. It's one of those things that everyone says it doesn't matter as long as you work hard.....but deep down inside....is another story haha. So it has all been a humbling experience...something I needed! We had been hitting standards week after week and then we started to rely a little too much on ourselves. So we MUST involve the Lord in his work! It's not my work and it doesn't matter how many baptisms I see on my mission, what matters is that I follow the promptings of the Lord and and invite people to come unto Chirst through baptism....not push them into the font.
So I cried yesterday for only the 2nd time since being a missionary...and now..I'm all over it! haha Time to get up and work harder and better.
S....let me tell you more about S. She is AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously so strong! We have taught her about all the commandments and when we taught her about modesty we brought some of our skirts that don't fit us anymore for her to wear to church. She is so willing to change and start obeying the commandments. She already talks about going on a mission and being married in the temple. She is just amazing. I love that girl! I'll send a pic of her:) and abigail....she loves milk cows ;)
Also last night that lifted our spirits.....we found a family to teach! They are so cool are just looking for peace and happiness!!!!! I love the gospel so much! Heavenly Father knows exactly what we need to learn and will enable us to overcome anything IF we are just willing to turn to him and change.
I just want everyone to be a member of the churhc....but not only a member an active member! There are so many members of the church who are living below their priviledges! We have such a wonderful message and wonderful gift of knowing about the gospel! We MUST share it! I just love being a missionary.
Now let me just go off about how awesome my companion is....she is the funniest and most loveable person ever! A little on the crazy side, but the good crazy! She would fit right into our family. I'm dreading transfer calls next week. I don't think we will stay together, just because we get along so well- it's those companionships that get split up!
I love you all so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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